Friday, April 24, 2009

Melancholy

I failed. It hurts. Details tonight

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Well, since I'm free now I shall begin

I'm devastated.

I passed the road test, but failed the circuit when it was never a problem for me.

The reason was not because of incompetency but rather stupidity.

I failed the 3 point turn. I wanted to be 100% sure that I will not hit any poles so I adjusted my position once by reversing.

I was stopped and failed, don't think it is a mandatory mistake but I was failed.

Little did I know that only 3 moves were to be executed during this 3 point turn and thus adjusting my car by reversing sums up to 4 moves.

I didn't know about this but why do you think it was called the 3 point turn in the first place? Stupid? Yes I terribly am.

I practically went against my principles of 'pulling the trigger' which I coined up this year. What's there to consider? Being too careful turned out to be a devastating approach for me in the end.

But speaking from the logical sense, do you think I will reverse if I knew it would cause me to fail? It was de ja vu when I contemplated on adjustments prior recalling my instructor asking me to adjust once to avoid the poles. Nevertheless, I blame my shallowness of not reasoning what a 3 point turn was.

I brag of not having extra hours? I talk about competency, I boast about greater capacities, I ponder on the thought of breaking boundaries. It's just an epic fail to be precise.

Next Friday is Labour's Day and I've to wait for the 8th of May for the retest.

I waste time
I waste money
I'm 2 weeks behind from claiming my license
I FAILED

Now I know how it feels to get 6A's in PMR or 11A1's and 1 A2 in SPM.

You'll feel that something is missing.

When Winston Churchill said success is going through failure again and again without the lost of enthusiasm, I reckon it not an easy task for it is not a breeze to move on.

Therefore, I hereby VOW to never ever fail again. The aftermath is just too much to handle and having said that I am officially going on a hiatus.

The time frame is partially meant for the recuperation of my damaged soul, most of it is due to examinations though. I quote my vow, get it?

Fortunately, I passed my swimming test today, was expecting the driving to pass and the swimming to fail. But owh well, shIT happens.

Both of these rendered me physically and mentally exhausted.

So it's goodbye for now, say a month?
Will be back during the holidays.
Let's hope that I've made a full recovery by then.

When misery gets the better of you, you cringe in agony to the pulsating beat of inferiority

Au revoir

Cheerio☻☺


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